Love, honor and trust

This will be a long one so forgive me. All this week Steven has been with my mother as I have had to be at work for 6 am for for meeting(construction company) so Ronnie and I have had each others undivided attention. Which is not the norm. With my past history I have found that I have some trust issues that I am SOOO trying to work on..Poor Ronnie..anyway at 6 pm last night he still was not home, so I called. I stopped at Walgreen's he said I'll be there in a minute, and sure enough he was, but with no Walgreen bag. Instantly I was already trying to figure out in my mind when I could go through the cell phone bill. He must have seen the look on my face becuase he went right back outside and came in with the bag and sat it on the bar and said"You have got to stop,baby. I understand why you doubt me, but I am not him." Talked about being called out and I hate it, I hate that it spills onto him. And then he said.....I married you thinking that at any moment you would say I am going back. I lived like that for the first year we were married and then I finally caught a clue that you were not going back." So we have both been living waiting for the other to leave when that is so far away from what goes on between us. The things that people put themselves thru. The first time Ronnie ever met my parents we all went out to eat, i was so nervous i couldn't eat, Ronnie was so nervous he ate everything in sight, looking back i am sure it was pretty funny. but at the table he professed his love to my parents and told them that he knew i was his soul mate and that God had brought me to Barber Brothers and so on and so forth. My poor dad nearly choked on his tea. so even with that a grown man professing his love in a public place i should have had a clue then, but that "thing" in the back of my head won't let it go. So last night with tears in my eyes , i promised to give him a break and he promised again what he promised me the day we got married.... love ,honor and trust..